Your Baptismal

> Roman,

> You were baptized today! We so happy for you. God has granted us
> with you, the most precious gift and I want you to grow up knowing
> Him and how wonderful His love for you is. You are my little gift
> from God, I love you so much.

> You were so good during Mass, you slept the entire time. The only
> time you woke up was when Monsignor King poured the cold holy water
> over your head. And I mean he poured what seemed like enough to fill
> a bucket. You didn't like that too much. I didn't cry but did get
> teary eyed. I told myself that I wouldn't get all emotional.
> Afterwards we had family over for some food and cake. You are a very
> loved baby and your family always makes a fuss over how cute you
> are. I'm sure once your older and get to know your Godparents, that
> you'll love them. Your daddy and I think they are a pretty awesome
> couple.

> You're in your crib now asleep, hopefully having beautiful dreams.

> Love, Mommy

Your Baptismal

Roman, You were baptized today! We so happy for you. God has granted us with you, the most precious gift and I want you to grow up knowing Him and how wonderful His love for you is. You are my little gift from God, I love you so much. You were so good during Mass, you slept the entire time. The only time you woke up was when Monsignor King poured the cold holy water over your head. And I mean he poured what seemed like enough to fill a bucket. You didn't like that too much. I didn't cry but did get teary eyed. I told myself that I wouldn't get all emotional. Afterwards we had family over for some food and cake. You are a very loved baby and your family always makes a fuss over how cute you are. I'm sure once your older and get to know your Godparents, that you'll love them. Your daddy and I think they are a pretty awesome couple. You're in your crib now asleep, hopefully having beautiful dreams. Love, Mommy



Monica Sent from my iPhone

Roman Ian

Born 10-26-09
7lbs 5oz
19 1/4 inches
3pm

I'm finally a mommy! Those 39 weeks felt like forever but they also
went by so fast. Isn't he just perfect!! I love my little man so much!!

Labor is the best/worst thing I've ever gone through. The contractions
felt like hell threw my body. Mr. Alley said I was scratching the shit
out of him. I don't remember much, the damn pain was too strong to
remember it all. But after my second epidural I slept so damn good. I
remember waking up a couple of time and feeling some pressure down
there but I was too damn sleepy to call a nurse and tell her. Around
two in OB walks in to check on me and I tell her about the pressure,
she checks and is surprised that it's time to "have this baby". Even
though I was completely numb I only pushed for 30 mins. It was too easy.

Seeing him for the first time was amazing! I was speechless. I
couldn't even cry, I was in such awe. They took him away cleaned him
up brought him back and then I started crying. He's absoultely amazing!

Recovery! Shit!! Where are my pain meds!! I couldn't pee after
delivery and it took them a good while to figure it out. They had me
try and try and I couldn't. My back and abs were killing me! They
finally used a cathiter (sp?) and got all that pee out. I had a really
full bladder. After that I was able to walk around and move a whole
lot better. Don't think that I wasn't in any pain bc I sure ad hell
was. I just kept asking for my pain meds. Thanks to those vicodion I
also don't remember much of recovery. I'm still hurting but doing
better.

We made it home on Wednesday evening. It was a rough few couple of
hours for him to get adjusted to his new home. There was alot of
crying and very few sleeping. I got three and a half hours of sleep
that night. I wasn't too sure how I would survive thursday with that
little amount of sleep. Luckily after his 9am feeding he finally
decided to go to sleep! I snuck in another hour of sleep. Amazingly
enough that one extra hour was enough to give me a boost of energy.
Crazy how I'm surviving on 3 hrs of sleep a night and little 30 min
naps through out the day.

Breastfeeding!! Ugh, that's a work out. I feel like all I do is
breastfeeding. Left, right then right left. They are sore!! Omg are
they sore, they feel raw. Or how they felt when I was first pregnant
and just the wind blowing would cause them to hurt. Breastfeeding
itself doesn't hurt, once he's on there all systems are a go.
Unfortunely my milk hasn't come in ( leading to another prob). His
pedi told me not to freak out or beat myself up over it, that it takes
up to 5 days and I'm only on day 4. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have more
to offer him.

The crying, I think that's his hobby. He likes to trick us and as soon
as we are comfy in bed about to go to sleep, he'll start back up again.

We had our first pedi appointment today. I left crying. He has
jaundice. They used some forehead thingy and his number was at 15. 20
is when they would have to admit him to the hospital . And he also
lost 13% of his weight, bringing him in at 6lbs 4oz!! So he sent us to
get some labs to make where he is at and thank you God it's only at
12!!! The dr still has me breastfeeding but also bottle feeding him
and putting him out by the window to catch some UV rays (see picture)
Tomorrow we go in once again to check his weight.

That's it for now. I've been meaning to post sooner but since all we
(Roman & I) do is eat, sleep, poop, and sleep some more I haven't had
a chance until now. Once we get our schedule worked out I'm sure I'll
have more time to do things once again.

39 Weeks

I'm still pregnant! But I don't think it will be for long. Yesterday I
started getting back labor pains. It's the most painful damn back pain
I've ever experienced. When the, I guess, contractions came they had
me doubled over and in tears. I finally made myself get up out of bed
and walk around. It really didn't help any. I'm still hurting today
but not as bad as yesterday. At least today I'm able to sit down
without too much back pain.

I think some lady that kept admiring me on Friday caused the begining
of labor to start, she gave me ojo! I swear she did. I spent most of
Friday night throwing up and then woke up in pain on Saturday... Yup,
blame it on the ojo.

My bursts of energy are all gone. I can only do so little before I
need to sit down. It feels awful being so tired all the time. I'm also
eating much less, I'm just not as hungry as before.

I honestly don't know when I'll pop. The way I feel, I say any moment
now but it's up to my little man to decide when he is ready.

iPhone testing

Monica
Sent from my iPhone

38 Weeks

2 more weeks left! And trust me my belly is HUGE. I keep bumping it into everything. It just sticks so far out there. It's crazy. There isn't much to report only the damn pain I'm in no matter what I do. I sit/lay/walk/stand and I feel this awful pressure/pain down there.

I had my weekly OB visit yesterday and I've dilated to a little over 1cm and baby weighs in at 6.5 pounds. He's going to be a big boy if he stays in there for another two weeks. He already feels like a big boy with all those violent kicks. He is positioned with his head down, butt in my rib cage and legs/feet constantly kicking me on my right side.

I asked my OB if I go over my due date how long will she allow me to go before inducing. And I love this woman!!! She said that I could induce the day of my due date if I wanted to!! Yippee! If I do have to induce I would like for him to be born on October 31st. That's an important date on Mr.Alley's side of the family.

I know people are just curious or being nice but to hear the same questions over and over gets really annoying. "When are you due?" "How do you feel?" "Is the nursery done?" I get asked this stuff at least once a day by people I know or complete strangers. I wouldn't mind answering all these questions every now & then but not all the time. And how come strangers feel that they can share advice and their own personal labor story with you. I don't care to know how it went for them. I don't even know you!

36 Weeks

Only 1 month left. Isn't crazy how fast the time went by?! I've now started seeing the doctor once a week and it sucks. Yesterday they had to draw blood, stick a cotton swab up my woowoo and check to see if I'm dilated. They seriously need to drug me up before they do any of those. I almost thought for a minute that the doctors arm would get lost in there. Most painful uncomfy doctor appt ever! And just because she says "it's just a cotton swab" doesn't mean shit! It felt like sandpaper. And why did they have to swab my woowoo, well apparently women do or can carry the Strep B virus down there. Hell, I had no clue that my little woowoo could get a damn cold!

Doc said that she doesn't have to check me at every appt to see how far I've dilated but that would be crazy. What if I'm huge and don't even know it. Of course I wanna know how its going down there. As of yesterday I was almost at one inch. Shit, it has begun! Hearing that, it scared the shit out of Mr.Alley.

The third trimester has to be the worst! The baby has dropped so I literally go to the bathroom about every hour and a half. I have the biggest waddle and cant walk faster than a stroll. Luckily the heartburn from hell has cut back some. I have this AWFUL pain down there that feel like I'm being torn apart from the inside out in my woowooo, oh wait I am! My little baby's kicks are painful. He is out of room and feels that he has to let mama know that he is ready to come out. I get it, I get it, it's not as roomy as it was before. My feet are so fat!!! OMG I really cant see them when I look down so I never noticed but the other day when I had then up I wasn't even sure if they were mine! I used to have long skinny toes and now they look short and stubby. And my ankles! What the hell happened to my bones, you cant even feel them if you tried!

I'm ready for him to get here but I'm absolutely terrified at the same time. So many what ifs? What if i don't have enough clothes, cant breastfeed, I cant comfort him, not enough diapers, if its too cold for him, how do I know what he needs. So many fears of the unknown. I want to be the best mommy that he can have but I have no clue what the hell I'm doing!




Edit: OMG! Check out the 31 week pic and compare it to 35 wks!!! Freaking huge!!!